Sunday, March 10, 2013

a perfect balance of elation and heartbreak

This is my new blogging home, so I will be sharing some deep shit with you from time to time, taking a break from hawking my book like my life depends on it.

I'm sorry. And you're welcome.

I thought about sharing all the details of the elation and heartbreak here but to be honest, I'm not quite ready for that yet. Let's just say that my weekend was a roller coaster that involved events ranging from being dumped by a lover of two years and finding out that I didn't get the job I'd interviewed for recently to having an amazing time with friends and seeing my alma mater win a very important game, clenching a title in the process.

Then there was shutting down my profile on the site my blog was on, which was a huge deal, a both happy and sad occasion in many ways.

I feel an emptiness inside right now that is shaking me to my core. But, I also know this is life. The ups and the downs - although not normally seen in such close juxtaposition - this is life. We have to roll with the tide, make the best choices we can make and then accept the things we can't control.

I know this, and I will keep telling myself those words as I heal. But it's going to take awhile. Please bear with me.


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  1. I am so sorry for the shitty parts of your weekend...I'm glad it was tempered with some good stuff too...hugs :)

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    1. Thanks, it's not like this wasnt expected eventually, I just thought that I'd have a few more months and some time to transition my mindset. I'm pretty angry right now. We'll see how I feel in a few days.

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  2. Wasn't expecting the words "dumped" and "lover" to appear in the same sentence given all that's been going on the last few months. Hope you're okay and enjoy your non-in-control time. Hugs.

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    1. I wasn't expecting to write them, not for a few more months anyway.

      I don't know if you read the book but the situation is parallel. I just didn't think the end would come just yet.

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  3. The bad, the good and the ugly, sounds like a title for another book. Things will get better, they always do. Hang in there.

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